You may not notice, but I’ve been significantly less productive during summer. And here is why:
That’s why I can’t stop.
After coming back from my vacation, I’ve been trying to get back to do some comic work.
I think I lost my brain in Toronto.
But it will find its way back, just need some time.
My family recently visited Toronto. Our face melted the moment we stepped outside of the airport.
It was so hot I couldn’t do anything but laying down in an airconditioned room and drink cold lemonade with my body coved by shaved ice. No, I didn’t do that, instead, we went to every hottest tourist spots in Toronto including the zoo, the ZOO! There weren’t even animals! It was foolish, but for a reason that maybe I will tell you later.
After living in the northwest for over ten years, my concept of summer has been twisted. Forgive me the sun god for not respecting you and forgetting about your mighty powers. I will stay in Seattle like a disciplined person with self-knowledge for the rest of the summer.
For a long time, summer didn’t matter to me. It’s just ordinary, occasionally hot days added up for a month or two. The chores, the vacations, the struggles, they were invisible and irrelevant.
Now every day started with the kids waking me up violently by opening our bedroom door with a loud slam and diving into our bed headbutting my chin, followed by the daily negotiations of eating one more bite of the egg or watching 5 or 10 minutes of TV.
But no matter how exhausting the mornings went, I knew, that it would all end at 8:50 when they picked up their bags and got out of the house. Preschool saved lives.
Until summer is here. I didn’t adjust my mindset and behavior for the first couple days, and it was terrible. I went all out too early, at 9 o’clock I already ran out of my mental and physical energy. My body was all ready for the next peaceful 4 hours only to realize that I needed to keep going for the rest 9 and half hours, for the next 70 days.
This isn’t the first time. But because of my lack of motivation to plan and procrastination, even I knew it was coming, I didn’t want to face it and let it catch me off guard.
So this is my living situation now.
I’m currently in the freeze mode. Fight or flight will follow.
Wish me well.